把心放下, 就是天堂

摆脱羁绊，飞得更高；
挣脱束缚，飞得更远。

等着看我，在空中翱翔...

*thatshouldbeme*

THAT SHOULD BE ME ! WHY ?!
真的不知道,自己是白痴智障脑残还是神经病!
deactivate Facebook, 是要避你,但却总想办法得到你的最新消息;
想发简讯给你,却刻意发去知道你不可能再用的号码;
将一切在这里发泄,因为知道你不会来这里,但却希望你能看见这一切...
我怎么了?!
我投降!我输了,彻彻底底败在你手下...为什么?你狠狠地把我摔下还怕我死不了,还要用力的踏几脚,让我起不来才甘愿.为什么?你那么狠心,就连在我梦里,也要伤我?!
自己真的有够傻得,当初表哥的劝告根本听不进去,现在终于知道,哪些人真心想要我好... ...

没什么的 ~

Facebook, deactivate 了, 想了想,你应该不会到这里, 也应该从未记得我曾经告诉你这里...
你这几天应该过得很好吧? 肯定不会像我, 说真的我自己都不晓得这一个星期,我是怎么过的... 生活的步伐变得很慢,很慢... 但这没什么的, 只不过过得痛苦一些,一天的24小时,似乎得挨上一个世纪,才会结束...没什么的,就只不过像个疯子拼命望向手机...没什么的,只不过可以忘了自己在干什么...没什么的,就只是什么都吃不下...没什么的,只不过多了眼泪的相伴,无时无刻,如影随形...没什么的,只不过不会再像以往在课室大讲大笑...没什么的,就只不过泪总尾随着那些不断浮现在脑海的回忆,簌簌而下...没什么的,只不过哭着睡着,醒来还没离开被窝又流泪...没什么的,就只是这样而已;就只不过不是以往的我而已... ...没有必要在形容自己有多痛,用文字也根本形容不了... 没有人有兴趣知道,你更是完全不想理会是吧? 谢谢你,用你的甜言蜜语把我举得很高很高,接着狠狠地把我摔下,很好,就只不过这样,没什么的... ... 第一次,这么失控,就连我都讨厌现在的自己,怎么都控制不住的自己...这一次,我真的很失败,一向来我擅长的伪装快乐,我办不到...这一次,不管怎样装作没事,却还是被看穿...

这首歌?你还记得吗?疯狂的听着这首歌,想想那些曾经...因为不想看到低落的我,她愿意用一天的时间,将这歌词背熟,然后总在我耳边哼着...她握住我的手,说不会放开,让我靠在她肩膀,之后就用她责骂的口气要我停住眼泪...他愿意就这样让我用力的打在他手臂,每天用他那不见得好笑的笑话来取悦我...平日爱摆架子的他,看到我这样,不断向我比peace,就只希望能够博我一笑...她,在FB post 了好多关于我的事,支持我...还有他,为了让我好过一些,没做错也不断道歉...他,总会每天发简讯来关心我,即使我不曾回复,但他依然这样做...她.他.还有他们... 真的很谢谢你们,但对不起,不管你们怎么努力,我还是一样无法让你们放心...你们付出越多,让我更痛...真的很对不起你们,真的很谢谢你们...我真的没有办法就这样放下,但无所谓,没什么的,我会很好,很好很好 :')
Since hopeless is born,
Infinity chillness I owned,
Accompanied by you becomes my wound,
Now everything is gone,
Gonna face it alone.
Suffering alone in the world of chill,
Imagination of mine doesn't fulfill,
And I even willing to be killed,
Neither than no one cares if I'm ill,
Get lost I think maybe I will.
p.s. 给他,那一个笨小孩...

oh, I see.

pheww, I think I had found out all the truth.
Well, I just shouldn't think too much and do think RATIONALLY !

again, you made me so INSANE because of your words.
I almost go crazy and out of control.
even it is just very simple and ordinary.
but then, I found that actually you mean NOTHING AT ALL.

I try so hard to link myself with what you're trying to say there.
and it ended up with I finally get what you meant - actually I'm totally irrelevant with that.
it is worse when I found your words, there, another blog.
and WOW , it does really blow my head off.

well, your words kill me. seriously.
fine, that's all I want to say. ohh no, should be that's all I CAN SAY.

the awkward feeling =\

ohh well, am suffering from this super-duper awkward feeling.
yea... YOU, is YOU !
you totally drive me crazy.

there is a human being, had a post in the blog.
the post that do really kills me,makes me keep on asking what is actually mean by that post.
I bet you don't know that
I would be so crazy and excited, just because of one comment from you for my post ;
and I even wanna KILL my friend, because of your 'like' in Facebook.

the silly mind of me, the spoony me.
I'm trying so hard to find out what is actually happening out there, between you and that person.
and gosh, this is too bad, you know, the feeling of JEALOUSY.

HEY YOU !
I just wonder if you are still reading my blog, or actually you NEVER ?
WELL, this is still an unique post, for you.

诗歌朗诵? 结束了

快一个月了, 才来post这 ><''
嗯, 今年的诗歌朗诵, 我们 没有赢 ... ...
本来还抱着满腹期望, 要到马六甲去 (今年的国赛在马六甲)
结果, 目标无法达成,马六甲梦... 碎 !
公布成绩时, 我们都很失落, 但却都改变不了了...
打给爸爸, 妈妈和姐姐告诉他们结果时, 他们都说了同样的话: "那不就是没得代表了?"
拜托, 我已经知道了, 为什么还要提醒我? ==

没有不甘愿, 只不过很失望... ...
后来老师安慰我们
"去了两年国赛, 这一次让让别人去吧, 不要永远都是我们"
"国赛过后就PMR咯, 不用去比较好"
"不用去国赛, 不用练习, 还不好啊?"
都不懂老师这是哪一国的安慰方式 :\
我知道的, 其实老师也很失望....
不过说真的老师的话也没有错, 不用练习就可以有多点时间读书啦 ~
PMR, here I come ! XD
马六甲嘛 ~ 又不是没去过 :P

比赛之后一群失落的小孩在车上K 歌 ><
你不知道的事, 你们是我的星光, 说好的幸福呢, 没那么简单, 没关系, sorry that I loved you etc.etc.
结果老师忍不住叫我们不要唱酱悲的歌 XD
还建议我们去玩射箭发泄 ~
说真的老师还真可爱 XD

这一次的比赛没赢, 的确是个遗憾, 毕竟今年是我最后一次可以参加群朗,
不过也没办法了, 至少这一次准备比赛的过程我们都蛮享受的~
还认识了超可爱的小妹妹 O(∩_∩)O
而且我们严格上来说只有一个星期的时间, 稿也换了5篇才定下来的...
够了, 有这样的经验就够了... ^^

诗歌朗诵, 明年再来!