Tuesday, October 25, 2011

A quick post about recent life :)

well, PMR is over and my life is too awesome now, seriously. I do anything I want anytime, anywhere ! I went to Sandakan last weekend. I really enjoyed the trip. If possible, I'll have a post about the trip .Photos taken had been uploaded to Facebook ;)

For now , I go to school just for playing ! We got Program Selepas PMR for all Form 3 students. We carried out several activities in one week, and this programme will lasts for 3 weeks. For those who thinks this is boring, ohh please, I'm sure that you don't really take part in it. If you join every activity, you won't feel bored, really. And luckily, I am one of the AJK, which have no need to join groups and play those games. The more important thing is, I am the ketua. I have no need to stand under the sun to in charge those activities everyday. My task is to record the winner for every game. Other AJK are quite pity I think ><
Anyway,us AJK are really naughty *laugh* , sometimes, just sometimes, we escape from the activity that we think is boring, and go for photo- shooting or gossiping ! We foster better relationship, I mean among the 9 AJK. I LOVE YA' GUYS !


Then the coming days, what I think special are activities like Jamuan Pengawas 2011. Although we don't have grand dinner like other schools, but I think prefects of SMCH are really awesome ! :D

After that will have performance at school during Kempen Membaca.
Jamuan Kelas and Jamuan for Majlis Penutupan Program Selapas PMR.
And, the one I am expecting for - trip to Labuan ! Hope everything go smooth so we can really make it.

Well, I got idea for the coming blog posts. Will post them soon ! :D


Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Psycology Test.

Yesterday, our counsellor let us to take one test, called IPW - Inventori Personaliti Mengikut Warna. Through this test, people will be separated into four groups, according to four colours.
BLUE - People that enjoy social life, like to make friends, talkative and romantic.
ORANGE - People that like adventurous life, like to be challenged, like outdoor games or activities that involved physical movement.
GOLD - People that follow the rules and traditions, obedient and systematic.
GREEN - People that can be classified as 'scientific', like to investigate and read, like subjects that in the category of facts.

When teacher said this, I thought I'm a GREEN person. As I prefer academic. And I'm so sure that I'm undoubtedly not a ORANGE person. *sigh*

After done with the test - which consists of 100 items, with just answering YA or TIDAK, the result showed that I am a GOLD person. After I think over, ya, I'm a GOLD person, with the characteristics of a GREEN person. *laugh*
Yes. I'm a systematic person, a neat person. Complete tasks better with timetable, start to do a new task after I done with the old one. Yes. I follow the rules and traditions, perhaps.
Well, I admit, I'm a GOLD person.

Then today, we did another psycology test - IPS. This is a test followed by 150 items, just to answer TRUE or FALSE. Then , our answers will be calculated and jot down with points rating
7-10 : High
4-6 : Average
1-3 : Low

I think the result really suits me, a lot.

1. AGRESIF - I got 10 for this. According to what our teacher said, this kind of people do not care about others' feelings when they want to achieve their aims. By hook or by crook, they want to done with their targets. Well, I admit, I'm this kind of person.

2. ANALITIKAL - For this, I got 7. High rating, too. People that scored high for this love to analyse people, things and the surroundings. Have high curiosity. And a bit 'busybody'.

3. AUTONOMI - High score in this showed that this kind of people want freedom, want to do things in their own random way. For this, I'm average-4. Yes, sometimes, I do not like too freedom life. I do not like to do anything in random way, or spontaneous. For me, I'll feel like do not have any direction to start.

4. BERSANDAR - So unbelievable, I got 7 for this ! It means that I'm a kind of people that rely on others. Well, maybe I am, just I do not realize it .

5. EKSTROVERT - I got 10. Which means, I'm a sociable person. Enjoy making new friends, not hesitated to talk with strangers and don't feel weird in new situation with new people. Yes, I think I am.

6. INTELEKTUAL - Scored 7 for this. Undeniably, I'm a kind of people that prefer theory than practical.

7. INTROVERT - Opposition of ekstrovert. As I scored high in ekstrovert, I only got 3 for this part.

8. KEPELBAGAIAN - Characteristics for this kind of people are they able to be used to new situations and surroundings.Like variations in life. I'm average in this, got 5 points.

9. KETAHANAN - Perfect 10 for this ! *proud* People that strong in mental control. Not easy to be defeated when being teased, verbal-abused, or even bullied.Able to handle their emotion. Yes, I am. I won't easily throw in the towel in awful situation.

10. KRITIK DIRI - If people scored high in this, means that they are self-accusation. Always blame themselves if there was a mistake in a group or an organisation. They are always easily offended. I got 5 for this, average. *smile*

11. MENGAWAL - No doubt, high score - 9 ! People that like to be a leader. Like to lead and command people.Not an obedient person. Exactly, I do not like to be manipulated by others.

12. MENOLONG - People that ready to help others out. Obviously a helper. Too bad I just got 3 for that.*sob*

13. SOKONGAN - Want attention from others. Want to be agreed and supported. Want people to care and concern. Teacher said, this kind of people - kurang kasih sayang -.-
and I gt 8 for this. But well, reluctantly, I admit that I want to be agreed.

14. STRUKTUR - This kind of people will do things systematically. Usually make themselves timetable for things that need to be done. Yes, of course I am. I got 9 for this.

15. PENCAPAIAN - High score is good as they are always self-motivated, they think positively when facing with problems. While those scored low here are those depressed easily, and a bit self-center, they won't admit their fault, just blame others when a problem occurs. Luckily, I'm not that kind of people, I scored 9. *wink*

Well, I think both tests suit with my personality. Acknowledgement to our counsellor to give us these tests :D

Monday, August 29, 2011

把心放下, 就是天堂


摆脱羁绊,飞得更高;
挣脱束缚,飞得更远。

等着看我,在空中翱翔...

Saturday, August 20, 2011

*thatshouldbeme*


THAT SHOULD BE ME ! WHY ?!
真的不知道,自己是白痴智障脑残还是神经病!
deactivate Facebook, 是要避你,但却总想办法得到你的最新消息;
想发简讯给你,却刻意发去知道你不可能再用的号码;
将一切在这里发泄,因为知道你不会来这里,但却希望你能看见这一切...
我怎么了?!
我投降!我输了,彻彻底底败在你手下...为什么?你狠狠地把我摔下还怕我死不了,还要用力的踏几脚,让我起不来才甘愿.为什么?你那么狠心,就连在我梦里,也要伤我?!

自己真的有够傻得,当初表哥的劝告根本听不进去,现在终于知道,哪些人真心想要我好... ...

Friday, August 19, 2011

没什么的 ~

Facebook, deactivate 了, 想了想,你应该不会到这里, 也应该从未记得我曾经告诉你这里...
你这几天应该过得很好吧? 肯定不会像我, 说真的我自己都不晓得这一个星期,我是怎么过的... 生活的步伐变得很慢,很慢... 但这没什么的, 只不过过得痛苦一些,一天的24小时,似乎得挨上一个世纪,才会结束...没什么的,就只不过像个疯子拼命望向手机...没什么的,只不过可以忘了自己在干什么...没什么的,就只是什么都吃不下...没什么的,只不过多了眼泪的相伴,无时无刻,如影随形...没什么的,只不过不会再像以往在课室大讲大笑...没什么的,就只不过泪总尾随着那些不断浮现在脑海的回忆,簌簌而下...没什么的,只不过哭着睡着,醒来还没离开被窝又流泪...没什么的,就只是这样而已;就只不过不是以往的我而已... ...没有必要在形容自己有多痛,用文字也根本形容不了... 没有人有兴趣知道,你更是完全不想理会是吧? 谢谢你,用你的甜言蜜语把我举得很高很高,接着狠狠地把我摔下,很好,就只不过这样,没什么的... ... 第一次,这么失控,就连我都讨厌现在的自己,怎么都控制不住的自己...这一次,我真的很失败,一向来我擅长的伪装快乐,我办不到...这一次,不管怎样装作没事,却还是被看穿...

这首歌?你还记得吗?疯狂的听着这首歌,想想那些曾经...因为不想看到低落的我,她愿意用一天的时间,将这歌词背熟,然后总在我耳边哼着...她握住我的手,说不会放开,让我靠在她肩膀,之后就用她责骂的口气要我停住眼泪...他愿意就这样让我用力的打在他手臂,每天用他那不见得好笑的笑话来取悦我...平日爱摆架子的他,看到我这样,不断向我比peace,就只希望能够博我一笑...她,在FB post 了好多关于我的事,支持我...还有他,为了让我好过一些,没做错也不断道歉...他,总会每天发简讯来关心我,即使我不曾回复,但他依然这样做...她.他.还有他们... 真的很谢谢你们,但对不起,不管你们怎么努力,我还是一样无法让你们放心...你们付出越多,让我更痛...真的很对不起你们,真的很谢谢你们...我真的没有办法就这样放下,但无所谓,没什么的,我会很好,很好很好 :')
Since hopeless is born,
Infinity chillness I owned,
Accompanied by you becomes my wound,
Now everything is gone,
Gonna face it alone.
Suffering alone in the world of chill,
Imagination of mine doesn't fulfill,
And I even willing to be killed,
Neither than no one cares if I'm ill,
Get lost I think maybe I will.
p.s. 给他,那一个笨小孩...