Bye 2011. Hello 2012 :')

真的到了，2011 年的最后一天，噢不，是最后五分钟。2011年的最后一天，说真的过得没有很好。懊恼当时把真心话透漏出来,还理所当然地否认了。不过说真的，不是当下太冲动，而是一直以来都伪装着很理智坚强。不管怎样，2011都快过完了，是时候不要再放纵自己，放下，因为真的不值得，你根本 不在乎...


2012， 我要过得很好，很好很好 ：')

Update :)

I'm back. Back to this place, for three days. Today, outing with friends. Two different groups of people, four different places. It's quite fun outing with them.Enjoy spending time with them. Chit-chat a lot. Didn't saw them for quite a long period of time. Chat more about studies. *see we're good what :P* About next year, Form Four. Feeling like can't wait for it, well I admit, I'm a kind of EXCITED. What-so-ever. I know I'll regret what I've said after school reopen. But is okay, I'll leave to Kedah again after three weeks. That will be fun, I think. *grin* Anyway, at least for now, I am looking forward and kind of can't wait for it anymore.

New year, new class, new people, everything is so new. And I had my target set, gonna work so hard for that. Wish me best of luck guys ! :D

Well, this is actually just a post to update my blog. Enjoy the left five days peeps :P

1st of Dec

Today, 1st of Dec. 15 minutes more to say HI to 2nd of Dec.
December, the last month of 2011. LAST MONTH ? Time never pause, life goes on.
Undeniably, I gain a lot in this year, 2011. This year will be a memorable year for me, perhaps.

While saying goodbye to 2011, I'm welcoming 2012, and too looking forward for it.
2012, I know it gonna be a busy yet challenging year. However, I'm READY ! :D
I will live as a sixTEEN next year, I'm sixteen, and I want my sweet 16 to be awesome !
I've done my plans for 2012, and will work with all heart to achieve that.

Wait for me 2012 ?
No, I am waiting for you here,2012 :)

BORED TILL THE MAX !!!

School holiday should not longer than three weeks, seriously -.-
Well at least I think so .

Perhaps, I should do the things that I supposed to do to kill this feeling, or else I'll die of boredom, I think .

空中繁星点点,

在另一个平行时空的我 是否也看着同一片夜空 ?

那3天2夜 :D III

第三天, 回程 :'(

一早准备出发就开始下起绵绵细雨, 似乎很配合我们的不舍之情. 这次, 大伙儿一起坐ferry, 2个小时多也变得很短, 大家嘻嘻闹闹很快就过了. 午餐时间: 停在保佛, 自由去吃. 我们一伙的当然又是聚在一起啦~

还买了棒棒糖一起吃 :D

在火车上, 这一次, 很挤, 一直站着, 直到换站才有得坐. 火车一路上都一直停下载学生, 后来售票员跟我说, 这些小孩每天上学放学都是乘火车, 早上还要5点就上车, 本来有点讨厌跟他们挤在一起的这群小孩, 突然有对他们起了怜悯之心, 觉得他们很可怜. 之后, 朋友向小孩们送糖果, 他们下车之后不断向我们挥手, 从他们灿烂的笑, 可看出他们的喜悦. 几颗糖果, 他们就能满足, 觉得他们真的没被社会这大染缸污染了 ~

换了火车之后, 我们总算能好好坐下了, 大家话都不多, 因为知道行程快结束了, 大家心里都不舍.之后不晓得有什么问题, 火车在半途中停了近一个小时.那时候我们才再开始谈天, 聊了好多好多.....

到丹南时, 我的第一句话 : Tenom ? Too bad ~ 当时真的很不想回到这地方, 更何况回来之后就是假期, 自己一个人确实很闷. 没办法, 总该结束的. 3天2夜之旅, 结束了.

回想那3天2夜, 确实有太多美好且珍贵的回忆. 就像整个行程中就去了2次 Pizza Hut, 在里面更是趣事连连, 很难得的回忆 :')

这一次的trip 也让我和死党们奠下更深厚的感情, 也因为这跟他们关系更好了. 还认识了一位新的死党 --- Nazri a.k.a STAR ! 原本跟他没什么话讲, 哦不, 应该是没说过话! 可现在? 一起疯啦 !

我们会叫他STAR 是因为他很爱打扮, 又爱摆 pose 拍照, 还自称artist. lol

hmm ~ 真的很enjoy 这次的 trip, 希望还有机会能和这堆死党出去玩.

这一次的确是： 经验来的 ! :D

-完-

那3天2夜 :D II

第二天 :)

跟着原本行程表的时间, 6:30 要集合, 一早就爬起来 (而且还是5点就被吵醒 ==) 准备好, 却等了好久还没吃早餐, 后来才得知时间延迟, 拖到将近8:30 才集合出发. 第一站 : Kem Tentera Udara. 我认为最值得最难得也最难忘 ~ 我们看到了也体验到了别人鲜少有机会接触的飞机. 本来是不允

许拍照的, 可后来还是放宽限制让我们在飞机前合影 ~

看的第一种飞机 ~

第二种, 直升机的一种 ~

我们就坐在太阳底下快45分钟听他讲解关于这直升机. 之后我就一直找人替我当太阳. 够坏吧我 XD

在这里耗了太多时间, 也没法跟行程表走了, 所以下一站到 Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan.路上, 大家都睡着了. 但说真的啊, 这 Matriks 比我想象种好很多, 在我印象中是很烂很烂的 ><

其实我们到那边也没特别干什么, 就只听讲座, 有点闷 ><不过回想起来觉得我们都很对不起那些主讲人, 他们真的费尽心思准备, 后来还请我们喝水, 我们真的不好意思咯 ><

接着, 是午餐时间, 到一家餐厅用餐, 吃鸡饭 . 虽然不是很好吃, 但总算是3天之中最正常的一餐了, 不会辣. 所以大家都吃很多><

之后就到Stesen Kaji Cuaca. 其实它有official name, 可我忘了><

也有够闷得== 去参观一些测风测雨测阳光测空气污浊度………的仪器. 其实不是很明白, 也不感兴趣 == 之后也有一个小小的讲座, 讲关于天灾, 如何形成, 要怎样预防之类的. 不过说真的我大部分时间都在讲话 XD 不过我没听漏的: Labuan 隔天有海啸演习, 可惜时间太晚, 不然我们真的有机会体验体验的 ~ 经验来的嘛 ~

下一站是ILP- Institut Latihan Perindustrian. 我们被带到一个大厅, 冷气蛮冷, 椅子舒服, 再加上他给我们看听不到声音的短片== 很多人都睡着了, 我本来也快闭上眼睛了,可看见老师在拍睡觉的同学, 只好撑着, 东张西望, 发呆打发时间 ><

用过他们准备的茶点后, 就往下一站出发.我们都不晓得会去哪里, 到了才知道原来被带去海边了 !

很兴奋! 直接冲到沙滩上, 拿起树枝, 想着要写些什么, 最后写了 "经验来的"四个大字. 我们一伙的都有写噢 :D

之后就一直在拍照, 其他人都有在海边走走, 只有我们, 一直留在同一个区域, 不停地拍 ><

无所谓, 这经验来的嘛 ! XP

最爱这张 ❤

待了一个小时左右就回去了. 晚餐--- 竟然和前一晚一样! 也很辣, 所以~ 又是 Pizza Hut 咯 :P
那个晚上又跟他们去玩 bowling, 很早回房, 也很早睡, 应该一点左右大家都睡了, 大家都累了.

其实我们这一天missed 了好多, UMS Kampus Labuan, SMK Teknik 都没去到, 希望有机会拉大队再去一次 XD

待续........

那3天2夜 :D

前几天, 跟着学校到 Labuan 参观. 一直都很期待着这个trip. 但当朋友们开始一个个决定不去的时候,自己也开始动摇, 可最终还是去了. 没后悔当初的决定, 没去到, 才会真正的后悔啊 !

第一天的行程 ：

Tenom -> Beufort -> Menumbuk -> Labuan.

从丹南到保佛做的是火车, 一开始就已知道. 只不过真的没想到竟然会是那种火车— 全婆罗洲仅剩的,最古老的那种. 在车厢里, 位置不够, 我们只能站着, 可火车开始开的时候就开始摇晃, 站着也站不稳, 只要将就坐下. 那时候, 我们开始埋怨发牢骚, 甚至后悔参与. 可后来, 看见Ckgu Armizi (Kelantan 人) 站在车厢边缘, 拿着手机一直在拍照, 我又犯老毛病，说 : 你们不要一直不爽,你以为全部人有机会啊酱啊? 有些人想看这火车机会都没啊, 这经验来的 ~

就因为这番话, 我们开始对这次的行程改观, 抱着"经验来的"这心态, 一切似乎都是难得的.也因为这样, 整个trip, 我们总把这句话挂在嘴边, 尤其不满地时候, 也用这句话来安慰人. 庆幸, 当初会这样想, 让整个行程变得充实有意义, 更是一种新的体验.

就是这样的情况, 我们挤了2个小时.之后在某一站,我们换火车, 比较舒服的一种.

有得坐, 好多了吧？

到Menumbuk的时候, 我们得知一部分人可搭speedboat, 其余的坐ferry. 我们一伙的就很快的聚在一起, 要一块儿坐speedboat. 可后来, 我们从9个人变成只剩4个人乘speedboat. 到Labuan, 只用了约20分钟, 只好在Terminal 等坐Ferry 的他们. 一个多小时, 我们干了好多傻事, 很可笑, 但的确是美好的回忆. 人齐之后, 上了巴士, 就往 Balai Bomba Labuan 去. 接着就开始去逛街, 之后决定先去吃点东西, 所以到 Pizza Hut 去. 在那里, 有了我最棒的回忆, 和他们聚在一起, 谈天说地. 回去洗澡后, 发现所准备的晚餐很辣, 自己吃不了, 所以晚上又再到 KFC 吃. 幸好我们住的地方就在 shopping mall 楼上, 所以很方便. 我们在KFC 耗了快2个小时,才回房. 我们站在房门继续哈啦, 后来也不知怎的各自回房了. 由于我们住的那apartment 床位不多, 所以我和婷睡客厅的沙发, 而且我们很乐意 ~ 晚上的小插曲：停电! 也因为这样, 我和一些朋友三点才睡, 第二天5点又被吵醒了.

opps ~ 原本只想一个post搞定, 可写着写着第一天就很长了 ><
好吧，就一天一天来post , 等着吧 ! ;)

p.s. 照片已post 上 FB 了, 可瞧瞧 :D

分 享 。

这小蘑菇, 差一点儿, 就被我踩在脚底下.

忆起当时朋友在拍照, 我连跑带跳地朝他们的方向去. 所幸有位朋友向我喊着: "敏~有蘑菇!" 虽然当时不是因为怕我踩到这株小生命, 但我感谢当时有她的提醒. 低头望向它时, 不晓得何故, 很感慨. 抽起相机, 把它拍下. 接着, 便蹲着注视它. 看着看着, 我想了好多. 它很不起眼，但确实存在. 就像我们, 很多人, 不引人瞩目, 但确实存在. 无奈, 没有多少人, 愿意去察觉每一个渺小的生命存在的价值. 更可悲的是, 甚至将他们忽视. 就像这小蘑菇, 我原先完全没发觉它, 但在细心观察后, 或许是因为联想到我们日常生活中残酷的现实,觉得这蘑菇,格外不同. 有些人,有些时候, 像小蘑菇, 不容易被发现, 但其实也散发着自己独特的魅力.

人, 或许很多时候, 就像小蘑菇, 等待被发觉.

A quick post about recent life :)

well, PMR is over and my life is too awesome now, seriously. I do anything I want anytime, anywhere ! I went to Sandakan last weekend. I really enjoyed the trip. If possible, I'll have a post about the trip .Photos taken had been uploaded to Facebook ;)

For now , I go to school just for playing ! We got Program Selepas PMR for all Form 3 students. We carried out several activities in one week, and this programme will lasts for 3 weeks. For those who thinks this is boring, ohh please, I'm sure that you don't really take part in it. If you join every activity, you won't feel bored, really. And luckily, I am one of the AJK, which have no need to join groups and play those games. The more important thing is, I am the ketua. I have no need to stand under the sun to in charge those activities everyday. My task is to record the winner for every game. Other AJK are quite pity I think ><

Anyway,us AJK are really naughty *laugh* , sometimes, just sometimes, we escape from the activity that we think is boring, and go for photo- shooting or gossiping ! We foster better relationship, I mean among the 9 AJK. I LOVE YA' GUYS !

Then the coming days, what I think special are activities like Jamuan Pengawas 2011. Although we don't have grand dinner like other schools, but I think prefects of SMCH are really awesome ! :D

After that will have performance at school during Kempen Membaca.
Jamuan Kelas and Jamuan for Majlis Penutupan Program Selapas PMR.

And, the one I am expecting for - trip to Labuan ! Hope everything go smooth so we can really make it.

Well, I got idea for the coming blog posts. Will post them soon ! :D

Psycology Test.

Yesterday, our counsellor let us to take one test, called IPW - Inventori Personaliti Mengikut Warna. Through this test, people will be separated into four groups, according to four colours.

BLUE - People that enjoy social life, like to make friends, talkative and romantic.

ORANGE - People that like adventurous life, like to be challenged, like outdoor games or activities that involved physical movement.

GOLD - People that follow the rules and traditions, obedient and systematic.

GREEN - People that can be classified as 'scientific', like to investigate and read, like subjects that in the category of facts.

When teacher said this, I thought I'm a GREEN person. As I prefer academic. And I'm so sure that I'm undoubtedly not a ORANGE person. *sigh*

After done with the test - which consists of 100 items, with just answering YA or TIDAK, the result showed that I am a GOLD person. After I think over, ya, I'm a GOLD person, with the characteristics of a GREEN person. *laugh*

Yes. I'm a systematic person, a neat person. Complete tasks better with timetable, start to do a new task after I done with the old one. Yes. I follow the rules and traditions, perhaps.

Well, I admit, I'm a GOLD person.

Then today, we did another psycology test - IPS. This is a test followed by 150 items, just to answer TRUE or FALSE. Then , our answers will be calculated and jot down with points rating

7-10 : High

4-6 : Average

1-3 : Low

I think the result really suits me, a lot.

1. AGRESIF - I got 10 for this. According to what our teacher said, this kind of people do not care about others' feelings when they want to achieve their aims. By hook or by crook, they want to done with their targets. Well, I admit, I'm this kind of person.

2. ANALITIKAL - For this, I got 7. High rating, too. People that scored high for this love to analyse people, things and the surroundings. Have high curiosity. And a bit 'busybody'.

3. AUTONOMI - High score in this showed that this kind of people want freedom, want to do things in their own random way. For this, I'm average-4. Yes, sometimes, I do not like too freedom life. I do not like to do anything in random way, or spontaneous. For me, I'll feel like do not have any direction to start.

4. BERSANDAR - So unbelievable, I got 7 for this ! It means that I'm a kind of people that rely on others. Well, maybe I am, just I do not realize it .

5. EKSTROVERT - I got 10. Which means, I'm a sociable person. Enjoy making new friends, not hesitated to talk with strangers and don't feel weird in new situation with new people. Yes, I think I am.

6. INTELEKTUAL - Scored 7 for this. Undeniably, I'm a kind of people that prefer theory than practical.

7. INTROVERT - Opposition of ekstrovert. As I scored high in ekstrovert, I only got 3 for this part.

8. KEPELBAGAIAN - Characteristics for this kind of people are they able to be used to new situations and surroundings.Like variations in life. I'm average in this, got 5 points.

9. KETAHANAN - Perfect 10 for this ! *proud* People that strong in mental control. Not easy to be defeated when being teased, verbal-abused, or even bullied.Able to handle their emotion. Yes, I am. I won't easily throw in the towel in awful situation.

10. KRITIK DIRI - If people scored high in this, means that they are self-accusation. Always blame themselves if there was a mistake in a group or an organisation. They are always easily offended. I got 5 for this, average. *smile*

11. MENGAWAL - No doubt, high score - 9 ! People that like to be a leader. Like to lead and command people.Not an obedient person. Exactly, I do not like to be manipulated by others.

12. MENOLONG - People that ready to help others out. Obviously a helper. Too bad I just got 3 for that.*sob*

13. SOKONGAN - Want attention from others. Want to be agreed and supported. Want people to care and concern. Teacher said, this kind of people - kurang kasih sayang -.-

and I gt 8 for this. But well, reluctantly, I admit that I want to be agreed.

14. STRUKTUR - This kind of people will do things systematically. Usually make themselves timetable for things that need to be done. Yes, of course I am. I got 9 for this.

15. PENCAPAIAN - High score is good as they are always self-motivated, they think positively when facing with problems. While those scored low here are those depressed easily, and a bit self-center, they won't admit their fault, just blame others when a problem occurs. Luckily, I'm not that kind of people, I scored 9. *wink*

Well, I think both tests suit with my personality. Acknowledgement to our counsellor to give us these tests :D

把心放下, 就是天堂

摆脱羁绊，飞得更高；
挣脱束缚，飞得更远。

等着看我，在空中翱翔...

*thatshouldbeme*

THAT SHOULD BE ME ! WHY ?!
真的不知道,自己是白痴智障脑残还是神经病!
deactivate Facebook, 是要避你,但却总想办法得到你的最新消息;
想发简讯给你,却刻意发去知道你不可能再用的号码;
将一切在这里发泄,因为知道你不会来这里,但却希望你能看见这一切...
我怎么了?!
我投降!我输了,彻彻底底败在你手下...为什么?你狠狠地把我摔下还怕我死不了,还要用力的踏几脚,让我起不来才甘愿.为什么?你那么狠心,就连在我梦里,也要伤我?!
自己真的有够傻得,当初表哥的劝告根本听不进去,现在终于知道,哪些人真心想要我好... ...

没什么的 ~

Facebook, deactivate 了, 想了想,你应该不会到这里, 也应该从未记得我曾经告诉你这里...
你这几天应该过得很好吧? 肯定不会像我, 说真的我自己都不晓得这一个星期,我是怎么过的... 生活的步伐变得很慢,很慢... 但这没什么的, 只不过过得痛苦一些,一天的24小时,似乎得挨上一个世纪,才会结束...没什么的,就只不过像个疯子拼命望向手机...没什么的,只不过可以忘了自己在干什么...没什么的,就只是什么都吃不下...没什么的,只不过多了眼泪的相伴,无时无刻,如影随形...没什么的,只不过不会再像以往在课室大讲大笑...没什么的,就只不过泪总尾随着那些不断浮现在脑海的回忆,簌簌而下...没什么的,只不过哭着睡着,醒来还没离开被窝又流泪...没什么的,就只是这样而已;就只不过不是以往的我而已... ...没有必要在形容自己有多痛,用文字也根本形容不了... 没有人有兴趣知道,你更是完全不想理会是吧? 谢谢你,用你的甜言蜜语把我举得很高很高,接着狠狠地把我摔下,很好,就只不过这样,没什么的... ... 第一次,这么失控,就连我都讨厌现在的自己,怎么都控制不住的自己...这一次,我真的很失败,一向来我擅长的伪装快乐,我办不到...这一次,不管怎样装作没事,却还是被看穿...

这首歌?你还记得吗?疯狂的听着这首歌,想想那些曾经...因为不想看到低落的我,她愿意用一天的时间,将这歌词背熟,然后总在我耳边哼着...她握住我的手,说不会放开,让我靠在她肩膀,之后就用她责骂的口气要我停住眼泪...他愿意就这样让我用力的打在他手臂,每天用他那不见得好笑的笑话来取悦我...平日爱摆架子的他,看到我这样,不断向我比peace,就只希望能够博我一笑...她,在FB post 了好多关于我的事,支持我...还有他,为了让我好过一些,没做错也不断道歉...他,总会每天发简讯来关心我,即使我不曾回复,但他依然这样做...她.他.还有他们... 真的很谢谢你们,但对不起,不管你们怎么努力,我还是一样无法让你们放心...你们付出越多,让我更痛...真的很对不起你们,真的很谢谢你们...我真的没有办法就这样放下,但无所谓,没什么的,我会很好,很好很好 :')
Since hopeless is born,
Infinity chillness I owned,
Accompanied by you becomes my wound,
Now everything is gone,
Gonna face it alone.
Suffering alone in the world of chill,
Imagination of mine doesn't fulfill,
And I even willing to be killed,
Neither than no one cares if I'm ill,
Get lost I think maybe I will.
p.s. 给他,那一个笨小孩...

oh, I see.

pheww, I think I had found out all the truth.
Well, I just shouldn't think too much and do think RATIONALLY !

again, you made me so INSANE because of your words.
I almost go crazy and out of control.
even it is just very simple and ordinary.
but then, I found that actually you mean NOTHING AT ALL.

I try so hard to link myself with what you're trying to say there.
and it ended up with I finally get what you meant - actually I'm totally irrelevant with that.
it is worse when I found your words, there, another blog.
and WOW , it does really blow my head off.

well, your words kill me. seriously.
fine, that's all I want to say. ohh no, should be that's all I CAN SAY.

the awkward feeling =\

ohh well, am suffering from this super-duper awkward feeling.
yea... YOU, is YOU !
you totally drive me crazy.

there is a human being, had a post in the blog.
the post that do really kills me,makes me keep on asking what is actually mean by that post.
I bet you don't know that
I would be so crazy and excited, just because of one comment from you for my post ;
and I even wanna KILL my friend, because of your 'like' in Facebook.

the silly mind of me, the spoony me.
I'm trying so hard to find out what is actually happening out there, between you and that person.
and gosh, this is too bad, you know, the feeling of JEALOUSY.

HEY YOU !
I just wonder if you are still reading my blog, or actually you NEVER ?
WELL, this is still an unique post, for you.

诗歌朗诵? 结束了

快一个月了, 才来post这 ><''
嗯, 今年的诗歌朗诵, 我们 没有赢 ... ...
本来还抱着满腹期望, 要到马六甲去 (今年的国赛在马六甲)
结果, 目标无法达成,马六甲梦... 碎 !
公布成绩时, 我们都很失落, 但却都改变不了了...
打给爸爸, 妈妈和姐姐告诉他们结果时, 他们都说了同样的话: "那不就是没得代表了?"
拜托, 我已经知道了, 为什么还要提醒我? ==

没有不甘愿, 只不过很失望... ...
后来老师安慰我们
"去了两年国赛, 这一次让让别人去吧, 不要永远都是我们"
"国赛过后就PMR咯, 不用去比较好"
"不用去国赛, 不用练习, 还不好啊?"
都不懂老师这是哪一国的安慰方式 :\
我知道的, 其实老师也很失望....
不过说真的老师的话也没有错, 不用练习就可以有多点时间读书啦 ~
PMR, here I come ! XD
马六甲嘛 ~ 又不是没去过 :P

比赛之后一群失落的小孩在车上K 歌 ><
你不知道的事, 你们是我的星光, 说好的幸福呢, 没那么简单, 没关系, sorry that I loved you etc.etc.
结果老师忍不住叫我们不要唱酱悲的歌 XD
还建议我们去玩射箭发泄 ~
说真的老师还真可爱 XD

这一次的比赛没赢, 的确是个遗憾, 毕竟今年是我最后一次可以参加群朗,
不过也没办法了, 至少这一次准备比赛的过程我们都蛮享受的~
还认识了超可爱的小妹妹 O(∩_∩)O
而且我们严格上来说只有一个星期的时间, 稿也换了5篇才定下来的...
够了, 有这样的经验就够了... ^^

诗歌朗诵, 明年再来!

给珏对敏锐的话... (转)

好久没有写部落格了。或许是过去几个月没有值得我倾诉的事。
如今，心里抱着很沉重，不舍，错综复杂的心情，决定写下我心中最真实的感受。

近几个星期都忙着帮忙珏对敏锐练习辩论。虽然有些辛苦、疲惫，但是，在议长宣布拒绝动议的那一刻，心里的满足感、喜悦和自豪是非笔墨能形容，也是非言语能表达的。

想 起我刚刚完成3个月的国民服务，杨老师联络我叫我帮忙选人辩论的时候，那种茫然的心情，如今还记忆犹新。我永远都不会忘记我和杨老师站在校园中央望着校园 思索的无奈。那一刻，我们都以为后继无人了。当时的我，真的担心丹中辩论队从此后继无人，没有人能继续为‘非你莫属’完成梦想、延续回忆。

逼于无奈，我们还是选了3个完全无上场经验的新手--诗珏，欣敏和嘉锐。我相信，在我们决定人选的那一刹那，杨老师和我的心情都是战战兢兢的。毕竟，你们接着要面对的将会是延续‘非你莫属’蝉联冠军的重担。

为了让你们了解辩论的运作和国会辩的形式、让你们掌握辩论的技巧和窍门，我们特别出了一题辩论题作为试题。

刚 开始，你们的确是初生之犊，既不能反驳论点、也不能捍卫立场。渐渐地，不知不觉中，你们每个人的潜能开始浮现。你们蜕变的过程是奇妙的，更是叫人欣慰的。 从哑口无言变得理直气壮，从呆头呆脑变得随机应变，从被动反攻变得主动进攻，从被我牵着绕圈子变得不再轻易跌入我设下的陷阱。这是一天天、一点一滴累积起 来的。或许，你们不曾感觉自己在改变，也不了解自己的定位；然而，在你们的一言一语中，我看到了另一只有能力重振雄风的队伍。

期间，你们 必须面对功课与辩论的双重压力，必须面对杨老师的责骂，必须在短时间内学会辩论技巧，必须牺牲休息时间。有时，你们的埋怨、疲惫及压力，我是看在眼里，痛 在心里。或许是因为我是过来人，我了解你们所面对的压力、我知道你们的想法、我清楚你们的心情，往往令我非常心疼你们。或许是出于一份同情、一份怜悯、一 份关怀，我尽力帮助你们，希望能用我渺小的能力分担你们肩上的重担。这样的想法，或许是愚蠢的，但，对我而言，这是我唯一能为你们这些小瓜做的。

期 间，我试着让你们更了解题目、试着为你们建立信心、试着开解你们、试着帮你们在老师面前说好话、试着减轻你们的负担。我不否认，当我看到温什么都不贡献的 时候，我的心里有不平衡的想法。我开始质疑自己消耗自己的私人时间帮助你们是否明智。我开始怀疑究竟你们值不值得我付出。我甚至怀疑你们究竟有没有用心、 了不了解我的苦心。不过，那只是两天的事。如今忆起，我非常懊悔，觉得那是我最近做的最不对的事。我不应该轻易地质疑你们、更不应该有想要放弃你们的念 头。毕竟，只要真心付出，一切都是值得的。

比赛的日子一天天的接近。看着你们紧张的心情，我也开始感到忐忑。原来，不知不觉中，我已融入 了这只队伍，已增添了一份奇妙的归属感。我永远不会忘记出发前一天你们个个脸上沉重的表情，更不会忽略当时你们压抑的心情。那个傍晚，我试着跟杨老师妥 协，让你们隔天不用到校上课，有足够的时间休息和准备。我不会忘记杨老师对我说的那一番话。那天晚上我的心情也是沉重的。我感觉到你们的压力，也听到杨老 师的担忧。我唯一能做的就是增加双方的信心，答应即使是上台前的一分钟，我也会竭尽所能帮助你们。

终于，珏对敏锐没有令我失望，在比赛中脱颖而出，为‘非你莫属’重振雄风。一直以来，许多人都小看你们，其他辩手轻视你们，杨老师对你们缺乏信心，校方对你们没有抱着太大而期望；终于，你们成功证明了你们的实力！身为一份子，我实在为你们感到光荣！

感谢你们最终取得胜利。因为你们的成就让我相信真心的付出是不会白费的。你们让我饱受满足感。在练习的过程中更让我看见蜕变的奥妙。在你们身上，我看到了自己的过去。谢谢=）

珏对敏锐，你们做到了！！！
虽然过后你们更加烦恼，为后来的日子担忧，但是，我一定会在离开前尽力帮助你们的。
其实，在回程的旅途中，你们的抱怨、倾诉都令我心疼，看着你们的辛苦，我实在不忍心。
我能做的只是尽力开解你们，让你们建立信心，在这样的磨练中努力地走下去。
我答应你们，我不会对下你们不管。即使全国赛有多难熬，我都会尽力帮助你们渡过难关。

我要离开了，你们竟成了我不舍得的原因之一。
我才察觉，不知不觉中，‘珏对敏锐，以柔克刚’建立了一份如此深厚的感情。
我虽然即将离开，但是，我会在离开前尽量先帮助你们准备国赛的辩题，我不会放弃，我永远会默默的支持你们！

愿上天怜悯，保佑我得到JPA奖学金。这样一来,不但圆了我的梦想，也赐了我足够的时间陪你们共同进退。你们别忘了曾答应我为我祈祷的哦。愿上天成全。

无论如何，珏对敏锐一定要记得，我永远会在这里支持你们、帮助你们,默默为你们祈祷，献上我最真诚的祝福。

“古有非你莫属风靡一时，称霸辩坛；今有珏对敏锐重振雄风、再创高峰！”

珏对敏锐，以柔克刚万岁！！！


______________________________________________________
从姐姐的部落格转帖的文章~
突然想起有这么一篇文章, 一篇我们的文章...
读着这一字一句, 就越来越怀念当初的我们, 如果可以, 我真的想回到当初...
即使得再痛一次, 也在所不惜......
自己为什么那么执着于回不去的曾经, 一直放不下,我自己 也不知道... ...
每一次想起我们的回忆, 心 依然会痛... ...
还记得当初的互相依赖, 而今将不会再有这样的机会...
珏对敏锐, 我心中永远的一道伤 ... ...

无论如何,想谢谢姐姐, 当初 我们最依赖的你...
是你, 和老师, 将我们从懵懂 引向光明,
期间的鼓励、支持、信任；
是你们成就了今天的我们...

珏对敏锐, 以柔克刚... ...
我们还能回到过去吗?

啊啊啊啊啊

有一股想要 与世隔绝 的冲动,
让我活在我自己的世界 就够了 !

我不知道要怎样跟你们沟通 !
=\

珏对敏锐 ♥

''珏对敏锐'' 是姐姐帮我们取的, 是有何而来的呢? 是我们三位辩手的名字呗~
黄诗珏(jue), 陈欣敏, 颜嘉锐
所以我们珏对敏锐, 绝对敏锐 ;)

珏对敏锐是去年才诞生的组合, 不能否认我们只不过是一支非常青涩的队伍, 当我们在去年夺下沙巴冠军时, 那种喜悦无法形容. 当议长宣布国会拒绝动议时, 台上的我们还难以置信, 就这样, 我们第一次合体, 就让彼此之间的默契更加深厚 ...

2010年夺得全州冠军之后所摄

就这样, 我们踏入国赛圈子, 虽然初赛就败北了, 但我们那股热诚, 依然不减... ...
从州赛, 到国赛, 我们一起经历了好多好多的甜酸苦辣 ... ...
有时练习的时候, 也是一种乐趣, 我们聚在一起的日子太美好 ~
还记得州赛赢了之后, 在回家的途中, 整个巴士都快给我们搞翻了 XD
说的废话不计其数, 车内都只听见我们的笑声 ...
之后我们相处的每一个日子, 都留下了美好的回忆, 也奠下了深厚的感情 ....


直到今年, 珏对敏锐再次击败对手, 成为沙巴冠军...

赛后第二天, 我们穿着'辩衣' 去庆祝 :D

这情景似乎不会再出现, 因为你选择离开.... ....
嘉锐, 将不会和我们一同去国赛 ...
那滋味非笔墨能形容, 我们用尽办法挽留你, 每个下课, 就能看见我和你站在一起的情景, 然而每一次下课, 都给我带来一次又一次的失望... ...
我没有放弃, 依然抱着一线希望, 希望会有转机, 为的就只是愿你会回来... ...
但直到最后一刻, 你给你答案, 彻底将我引向 绝 望 ... ...
没有你一起并肩作战, 我们提不起劲, 每一次练习, 每一次心痛, 一直在想, 我们不应该是这样的, 珏对敏锐会更好的...

5月27日, 我们带着没有你的遗憾, 出发去参加国赛.抵达槟城,刚下机, 收到了你的简讯, 当时的心情, 无法形容, 看着那封简讯, 我在叹气, 没有人知道, 我心中 在流泪...
经过这些日子,我不晓得该怎么形容我们的队伍,我不晓得要怎样表达没有你的感觉...
只能说, 我们已经不只是一支队伍...
我们互相信任 , 培养出来的那份默契, 并非能够轻易的被取代...
你选择放弃你最后一次国会辩的机会, 真的是一种遗憾...
我们不会怪罪于你, 我们了解你的立场, 但真的感到可惜...
我们知道你其实也想跟我们一起去,
练习时候我们提起的话, 我依然记得...
当议长宣布我们为胜出队伍时, 你那句脱口而出的话, 我依然记得...
当我们叫你考虑清楚时, 你的表情, 我依然记得...
当我每一次试图说服你时, 你的一字一句, 我依然记得...
所有所有, 一切一切,我依然记得... ...
谢谢你心中还有我们, 珏对敏锐 :)


珏对敏锐, 已经画下句点, 已经成为历史, 我们没有机会再度合体,
这些回忆只能永远留在我们心中... ...

珏对敏锐的第一场比赛

同一天, 第二场比赛

2010年国赛

2010年, 传统辩

2011.04.16 沙巴冠军

2011年国赛, 你 不 在 ... ...

这首, 我们的 team song , 很多时候, 很多事情, 是在不知不觉中形成的, 就像这首当时风靡各界的歌, 成了我们的team song, 反而之前强制定下的'勇气'，比不上我们在不知不觉中培养出来的一切... ...
这首歌的旋律, 紧紧扣住了我的脑袋, 只要听见这首歌, 脑海里肯定会出现珏对敏锐的一切, 我们的面容, 我们共同经历过的所有... 全都在脑海中一一浮现, 挥之不去... ...

珏对敏锐, 虽然已成过去, 但在我心中, 是抹不掉的回忆... ...

辩

刚刚去逛了几位因辩论而认识的朋友的部落格, 才发现, 他们, 真的很有辩论的热诚 ... 读着他们的一字一句, 心里的每一根弦都被拨动 ...
我问自己: 辩论在我心中占了多少 ? 我自认, 我也爱辩论 !
自中一,就踏上辩论这条路,为何会加入? 我自己都不晓得, 但我认定, 这将会是我一直走下去的路!

六月假期的全国赛, 闭幕礼上那位校长致词中提及的小辣椒, 是姐姐 !
老师跟我说, 心里不晓得该喜该忧, 我想告诉她, 我根本不知道要如何面对!
非你莫属, 你们好棒!
2年得华中杯, 稳稳地在你们手中...
第三年, 珏对敏锐州赛初试啼声,夺走了沙巴冠军,直奔国赛~当我们全都是新手, 赢的那种滋味对我们来说太美好,但我们却没有能力卫冕国赛冠军, 将华中杯捧回沙巴...

珏对敏锐, 2011年州赛再度合体, 成功夺下州代表权, 国赛,却不是以珏对敏锐的姿势一同并肩作战... 心里真的很不是滋味, 我们有共同的经历, 我们已经不只是一个团队那么简单.我们的默契, 我们一起经历过的酸甜苦辣... ... 我至今依然不能接受, 我们不是以珏对敏锐的姿势出征,即使已经过去... ...
我们曾经承诺过老师的,我从没忘掉, 也是我一直秉持着的, 但结果, 无法达成... ...

我一直在想, 我是否可以像姐姐一样, 在辩论这片天地, 也给别人留下印象?
当珏对敏锐不再是珏对敏锐；当只剩下我孤军奋战，
我还应该奢望些什么?

自从参与辩论, 我背负的不只是关系我个人,
许多外在因素, 更多的责任, 都不知不觉挂在我身上，自从我参与辩论...

辩论, 我不晓得应该怎样形容我对它的感受...
我只想说,
辩论的热诚, 我会一直持续着；
辩论这条路, 我会一直走下去...

:: 改 变 ::

说我无知也好, 天真也好,
因为直到这一刻, 我竟然还坚信, 你会回来 ... ...

说我自欺欺人也好, 鸵鸟思维也好,
因为我就是 不能接受这事实, 即使自己已清楚知道, 结局会是怎样... ...

说我固执也好, 执着也好,
因为有些事情, 一旦决定了, 我就不会轻易放弃 ... ...

Aww. ♥

Royal Wedding William and Kate Highlights in 60 Seconds


OMG ! hmm well, I never dream about I can be a princess and will have such royal wedding.

I don't need a royal wedding like William and Kate's but I just want you to look at me like how William looks at Kate. ♥

29.04.2011

倒霉的一天! 这老掉牙的作文题目，竟然发生在我身上! :\

第一件倒霉事, 由那最喜欢惹是生非的东西而引起的....
我也无暇去说太多, 也不会因为你修养有问题, 而让我自己的修养也变得有问题 :)
你继续你一切举止吧，我 不在乎 ~

晚上，当某个社团节目的司仪，本来很好，结果又因为某人给全毁了! 我在想, 这世界是怎么了? 为什么他们可以这么主观, 这么自我中心 ? 重点是, 他们不对, 却又要硬硬来? ==
p.s. 这件事情的主角与我刚才提的那个人真的太像了, 可惜2个都是男的, 否则绝对是‘天作之合’ ! ==

仪式结束后，回到家竟没门进 ! ==
恕懒惰说明细节 :P

我说啊，这肯定是凶日，诸事不宜 ==

yayy ! a big V for us !

全州国会式辩论比赛 ： 我们赢了！ :D
珏对敏锐做到了！

这场比赛，我们对垒庇中，我们的立场为：教育部不应在中小学实施留级制度
庆幸的是，我得了最佳辩论员！:)
无比的开心，无法形容的心情~
但要重申：珏对敏锐是一体的！我们都很棒！ :D
我们，会比去年好！我自己也达到了目标，比去年的那个我进步了 :)
只愿到国赛的时候，不会有变数，还是以珏对敏锐的姿势去参加，我们 要一起，超越去年的我们！ ^^

08.04.2011

Today was the MPK of SMCH. Majlis Penganugerahan Kecemerlangan of our school. I was the em-cee for this ! Before this, i thought my partner will be Yayas a.k.a. my gayyprenn >.<''
but fuhh, not her ! is Amirah Atiqah, Form 4 student. not bad la... I think my performance was not bad just now, maybe. But , seriously, standing for about 4 hours++ really suffer me ! ==''
my legs are pain, until now . pheww...

fyi, I was also the em-cee for another ceremony of today, dermasiswa of Yayasan Sabah. although it is just a very simple ceremony. But need em-cee as well. luckily, I was the one XD

meaning to say, I was the em-cee for 2 ceremonies today. and, I found that being em-cee is so fun ! XD maybe just because I love talking-talking ! XD haha !
so attention : MC is not equal to muk chui ==
my classmates that love the words muk chui, which they always use it to tease vyp. so whenever I say the word MC, they'll say muk chui ==''
so lame....

so , this 'em-cee post' has come to an end XP

totally hyper ! XD

I was sad this morning, because of the terrible dream last night ! but well, everything go alright then. today, my school's English Association organized a KARAOKE competition. I was totally hyper during the competition ! my gang (Yasmin, Esrine, Conny and Josie) and I keep on screaming and shouting ! XD while the two besides me, Eunice and Angelina seem like toooo quiet.
after the performance of Vell, we keep on shouting 'WE WANT MORE' and people joined us. haha ! well, actually me myself, not really enjoy the songs. just enjoy screaming and shouting ! XD
seriously people, it's a good way to release stress. XD
and I learned to 'dance'. XD well, actually I didnt dance, Daniela was dancing. and she looks so cute with her dance. after that, yayas and I keep on doing what she did. haha ! crazy huh ?
hmm. i think i was too over just now. but nevermind, at least that moment, I enjoy , isn't ? :)
ohya. something so 'funny' happen just now. the group of girls in the middle of the open hall suddenly shout and stand up like to get rid of something. me, automatically stand up also. and after a while , i just knew that it is only a LIZARD ! == then we keep on laughing. at the same time, Dexter came with his very-nervous face and asked : why ? what happen ? and when we told him that there was a lizard, he laughed and walked away. lol
lizards are harmful, huh ?

UPDATE ! : )

hmph.just wanna update my blog with post.
so yeah. it is nothing so special recently, in my life. *oh! am lying*
actually something happen. but I just don't wanna care about that anymore. once I be how I supposed to be, and still blame by you, with NO reasons, then I DON'T CARE ! :)
at least I didn't do anything wrong. that's your own problem. and I'm wondering if you got mental problem or not. XD

well, today was the SPM result release day. and I do not know why I started to feel nervous. >.< will do my very best for the PMR.

11.3.2011

After I saw those pictures and scenes about the horrible Tsunami and earthquakes around the world. I just realized how blessed am I.
From now on, I appreciate things I had.
It's too good to be ALIVE.

PRAY FOR THE WORLD.

holidaysss !

so yeah. EXAM is ENDED and now is HOLIDAY !!
weepee. but I planned not to play that much this holy >.<
and actually I cant play. will have one day Bengkel Kepimpinan , practices, and folios to be done. and of course, books to study.hmm. as a conclusion, I have NO TIME to PLAY this holiday. pheww.. nvm. I believe that I'll gain something with my hard work >,<

so yeah, talk a bit about the exam .I think except BC, others are not bad :)
at least I know what to answer. BC oh BC ! all of us said that it was the hardest BC paper we have ever done for 9 years ! O.O
so oh yeah, u have no point to do such questions, isn't?

plus, I just do not know what to say about it. the thing that annoys me so much. and actually I DON'T WANNA to comment ANYTHING about YOU !
so well u just dont know how I feel about you, well. not only me. but US. u dont know that when u stepped out of our class then all of the rude words accompany u go out. XD you dont know what they said about you in the class just now.XD
就连平时最乖的那男生也把他最长的两只手指比出来 XD
and me, just think that the sixth alphabet suits u, a lot.
well. fine. I dont ever wanna talk about u ady. spoil my mood nia !

and ohya, just now we (yasmin,delia,esrine and vincent) stayback at school for analysing the informations for GEO folio. hope that all of us can done it by this holiday. weepee...

A happy day :)

haii all :D
today was just a happy day for me. I'm just so hyper today ! hee. well, because of some reasons, I got a really good mood today.I felt good before I went to school this morning *OMG, I think this is the very first time I feel happy before go to school,in this year* I kept waving and say HI to everyone.keep on smiling and laughing, just super happy! :D and, my class got a trip to hospital today. delia and I brought our cameras.photo-shooting time is always the most fun XD
took a lot of pictures today. and I love u guys, every members of 3 YAKIN. we ROCK!
tons of pictures will upload to Facebook, soon :)

plus, what we plan is really success, but I got the SOLO one XD

張棟樑 - 之間

倪安東 - 散場的擁抱

JJ Lin 林俊傑 - 她說

最近一直听这首歌~
♥林俊杰 >,<

Valentine's Day.

well. today is valentine's day. I think nothing go special.
went to school as usual. I was the em-cee of the boring assembly today.
then PJ. my group did something so lame and stupid. bt just I enjoy be with them and we always do things like this, what we called sotness. XD
then gt lion dance. aww. me likey likey ! hee
then study. and i think today was the first time I gt a really Chinese period since Form 3. hmm.

tonight. went to Perkasa with family, spent by uncle pao. and his family as well.
totally do not satisfy with that. so lousy ==
food that were not delicious. music that were annoying much. environment that is no romantic at all. duhh. I just dont know anything's good.
phewww...

blablabla. i think that's all. bye ~
btw, Happy Valentine's Day all ~

年初二&年初三

看来不止年初一，我整个新年都不正常了... ><''

年初二本来困在家里很闷，结果表哥打电话来邀我们去Jitra看戏 :D

结果我们就去了，看了两场电影~

最强囍事 & 神奇侠侣 ^^

两套戏都不错看，很好笑 XD

看完之后就去吃晚餐，Pizza Hut ~

跟去年一样，年初二，Jitra，看戏，Pizza . lol

之后就回家....

年初三去大伯家...

下午才去，午餐之后就‘开工’了 XD

我才知道原来那游戏叫deng ==

这次我赢了2块钱 :)

本来赢很多的,不过亲爱的uncle vincent 做庄之后就开始输 ==

幸好他还答应要请我看戏 :D

之后就没啥特别了，只是那晚特别迟睡，一点多==

今天年初四，去uncle vincent 家，应该也不会很正常 XD

看着办吧 XD

新年快乐！:)

hmm... before talking about CNY, I think it has been a long2 time I didn't update my blog huh ? well. actually I planned to update it about my birthday, but since I haven't get the photos of that day, so nothing much to say about that, and it past about one week already.so yeah, now talk about CNY～

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今年回西马过年，都没什么特别，不过大年初一就太不正常，做了很多奇怪的事...

年初一，八点多才起床，然后吃早餐，换新衣等亲戚到...

他们回来之后，就疯狂的玩自拍 XD *回沙巴之后会upload到fb :P*

我还抢表哥一边耳环来带，一人一边，蛮好的嘛！XD

之后就拿红包，uncle vincent 被我们玩惨了！哈哈！

不久狮团就来了，我们这家还真算是最坏的,把红包放在差不多屋顶的高度，结果他们竟然还要出动楼梯才能把红包拿下来...我是看到傻眼 ==

姑丈说：这是对舞狮的人的一种侮辱

还蛮赞成的 ==

p.s. 看舞狮的时候也不停地拍照,哈哈！

跟uncle vincent拍，然后红衣当也来拍一张 :) 我们还蛮多人 穿红衣的~包括我^^

之后就跑进家，我们一堆‘年轻的’围在一起大喊 ‘huat a!’ 结果二姑讲喊一次不够，然后我们也很配合喊三次 :D

喊完之后还等什么？跑进'huat cai room' 开始玩大老二 XD

不过没玩钱~我只玩了一轮，还真是一项record咯，13张牌只出了1张！==

也很好奇为什么大人还没开始玩，他们的才真的是能够huat cai的咧

他们都一直在吃，不过不久后也开工了啦 :D

他们开工我们也开工，多亏有我‘亲爱的’表哥，叫我看超变态又恐怖*对我来说*的鬼戏 ><''

堂哥又超会制照气氛，拉窗帘搞得整个客厅很暗很暗....

开始看还逞强，结果真的好怕，结果大家都怕，一直喊... LOL

我还一直打那拉我去看的表哥==

幸好他还很好给我打 XD

午餐之后我竟然也跑进去‘开工’...

我也不知道那游戏名什么，总之就是玩点数的啦~

我拿爸爸的钱来玩，手气本来不错，还被说是十赌九赢 XD

不过后来一直输，帮爸爸亏了四块钱 LOL

之后就放弃继续玩了，跑去房间跟表哥和姐姐玩...

玩玩一下竟然睡着 ==

醒来之后没啥特别，就晚餐，然后去大伯家...

回来的路上竟然肚子饿 ，结果停在杂货店买maggi ==

回家吃，吃的时候已经是十一点多，我们一面吃一面谈天，所以吃很久．．．

吃完的时候已经是十二点多，所以我是从年初一吃到年初二 ==

之后本来是说要看戏的，不过不成，跑去睡了~

今天年初二，还在家里，不晓得会有什么特别...

等着瞧吧 :D

WOW ! comment from her , the one I missed :'(

You're so friendly..1st we meet dring the meeting in my schl..You look quite shy that time..After a few days, a dinner..When i'm going bck to my room..& u call my name to ask for my room num & hp num too :P After that we getting closer & closer..Sot the whole nite..xpecially the last day..from around 10pm chat until 3am..I miss the moment with u guys..Well, Glad to be ur friend :D All the best & take care!

hmm...
miss every moment we had. I'd really miss you, a lot.
you're right. we really became closer and closer. and now I regretted. why didn't I asked for your room num earlier ? haha

anyway. wish you all the best and good luck in 2011 !
love ya'